[It took about twenty-odd years of the slow erosion of whatever confidence and self-worth his scrawny nerd body contained to develop the kind of negative self-esteem that Tim currently had. It was like anti-esteem, he had the miraculous ability to bum out other people with his own crushing depression.]
[Worst superpower ever, to be honest.]
[There was a moment when Majima was explaining that Tim kind of felt his stomach dive, the confirmation of these stupid insecurities-- I probably wouldn't remember ya-- but it's not unfair. It wasn't ever really Majima's behavior or inclinations that would've been the limiting factor, it was the fact that Tim wouldn't have ever had the balls to actually walk up to a guy that looked like him and talk to him. His own anxieties would've hamstrung him and it was kind of shitty for him to say you wouldn't have noticed me when the reality of it was that he wouldn't have let himself be noticed.]
I, god, okay, you shouldn't have to convince me, that's... that's not how relationships are supposed to work, I know that. I should trust you when you tell me you like me for me. And I do, it's just, I'm a mess from like the neck up? Seriously, shrinks would have a field day with me if I ever, like, actually went to one.
[Tim's whole, like, universe fucked up a perfectly good boy, that's what they did. Look at him, he's got anxiety.]
And uh, that whole Jack question hadn't actually entered my brain yet, which, hey, I'm kind of surprised that I haven't compulsively run through absolutely every worst-case scenario in my brain yet? But I'm glad we can just cross that off? Because that is a literal nightmare.
[Majima wanting to get with Jack. Thanks! He hated it.]
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Date: 2019-05-13 07:05 am (UTC)[Worst superpower ever, to be honest.]
[There was a moment when Majima was explaining that Tim kind of felt his stomach dive, the confirmation of these stupid insecurities-- I probably wouldn't remember ya-- but it's not unfair. It wasn't ever really Majima's behavior or inclinations that would've been the limiting factor, it was the fact that Tim wouldn't have ever had the balls to actually walk up to a guy that looked like him and talk to him. His own anxieties would've hamstrung him and it was kind of shitty for him to say you wouldn't have noticed me when the reality of it was that he wouldn't have let himself be noticed.]
I, god, okay, you shouldn't have to convince me, that's... that's not how relationships are supposed to work, I know that. I should trust you when you tell me you like me for me. And I do, it's just, I'm a mess from like the neck up? Seriously, shrinks would have a field day with me if I ever, like, actually went to one.
[Tim's whole, like, universe fucked up a perfectly good boy, that's what they did. Look at him, he's got anxiety.]
And uh, that whole Jack question hadn't actually entered my brain yet, which, hey, I'm kind of surprised that I haven't compulsively run through absolutely every worst-case scenario in my brain yet? But I'm glad we can just cross that off? Because that is a literal nightmare.
[Majima wanting to get with Jack. Thanks! He hated it.]